I just want to say, that right now I am in the best of moods. It's been a while since I've felt this way. I am very grounded right now, and I see so many possibilities. What's the reason for the awesome mood you ask?? Well letting Phil go, and stop talking to people that were bringing me down was the best thing that I could have done. Trying to help them was a mistake in my opinion. You can't help people that are not willing to help themselves.
Thinking back on the situations that I had with Phil, I was blind to what the truth really was. I was nothing more then sex to him. There is a difference between love and lust. Now I feel what was wrong with the picture. With Tommy I learned that I should never compromise who I am in order to be with someone. I'm a nice person and I have strict ideas on how I should live my life, and what I want in a relationship. I was foolish to lower my standards in order to try to make something happen that really wasn't there to begin with.
I stand firm on my feet now, able to take on any challenge. Two of my problems have left my life and two more issues I have to work on right now in order for me to be eternally happy. I can do it, I see the light at the end of THIS tunnel. I just have to keep trying. I'm like a baby that is learning to walk. You never see them give up, after they fall right on their face, they get back up and try it again until they get it right. I have to keep trying..
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